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| Hey everyone, remember me? does anyone out there still use this thing?
i wana write, but im too tired and lazy.... lol... still alive, still
in medic school, still hating it. i passed the endurance test for
jacksonville fire rescue, passed the lie detector (can you belive
that?) did well on the interview and am now on the hiring list. hope to
hear sometime next year because they were on a hiring freez for a
little while :( well got things done with st john's county and hope to
find out if im hired in octorber :) well, i just wanted to say hi :)
please, leave a few comments
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| i know i haven't been good on keeping up on here regarding things in my life. i tried in part because im tyring to forget san diego. which is not possible. i miss it, i miss the people, the love, tons of stuff. the family most of all *huge hug to all* i also have not been on here because i seem to complain more than usual.... but oh well, tonight is my theropy session. some of you have been harassin me to post on here, so enjoy.
i have been emotionaly shakey lately. always happens this time of year, u know, the winter depression. well sure enough, i got over it in january, but shit seems to be going down hill. not just in my mind, but stuff i can actually put my finger on. im getting tired of putting up with all the crap at my current job. so im quitting and starting as a server at another place called sticky fingers. its a REASTURANT brian...... i know what you were thinking.... what am i serving? FOOD lol. i got some crap to post about the weekend and why im leavin but that will follow.
wow, this could be a long one
im tired of putting up my girlfriend michelle's crap. i straight up called her a spoiled bitch last week. thigns have been rocky for a while... a few months really. got good for a week or two, and going back down hill again. a few times i was thinking about grabing my crap and walkin out and saying ill call you in two weeks.... but ive been good. feel kinda guilty. i wana break up with her, but i think its better to have something than nothing.... but then again, its better to be happy than unhappy.... part of why i stay with her is because she's close to graduating and i feel that by leaving her ill fuck things up for her and she won't continue... why do i care? well, honestly, right now i dont' give a crap... about much really... but its soemthing i thought about before, so ill stick to it, as best i can, while i can....
shit sux, but its close to being done.... i think.... ive been through worse, but like i said, don't really care right now.
with the new job commin, and training goin on, i hope to make new friends and get a new beginning goin. making more money now and thats always a plus. i try not to buy my happyness, and have been doin really well since ive moved here. i may however, have to break down and buy my sanity however.
last weekend i broke down on sat. wasn't feelin well. the sunday previous to last i slipped and busted my ass at work. hurt like hell, left early, and back has hurt since. hate doctors, so i refused to go to get it checked out. ive had worse falls.... right? oh well, fuck it. so back has hurt like hell, haven't slept for shit, and school is builind up on me with not only all the clinical times i have to do, but the fact the date's keep changing. oh well. so back to sat, i wasn't feelin well, so i layed down for a nap. i set my alarm before just to make sure. i wake up hearing the phone ring, roll over and try to go back to sleep. it stops, then rings again, so i answer it. come to find out, its 5:15 and i was suposed to be at work at 4:30. ooops. so i wake up, iron my shirt, and get to work. stumble into work, half asleep, and get my ass handed to me at the bar. busy as hell, even with help. messed up a few times.... me and the other person threw our tips together in a backet and split them at the end of the night. she handed me $43 and i made probably about $30 after she left. however, when i went to cash out, computer tells me i only made $19. WTF!!! i only broke change once.... so that wasn't it... i went back through the computers and couldn't find anything. guessing one perosn walked on on the tab, $13, can handle it.... and dont' remember another group cashing out because it was so busy.... maybe those two did it... maybe not, i donno.... anyways, gave up finally after about an hour of trying to figure it out and gave my cash prepared to walk away with only $19. i dropped soemthin so i went to pick it up, and on my way up i hit my head on the ledge sticking out. i did my best not to cuss, but it happened anyways. then my temper flaired and i felt it roar, pased around and then decided to release my ball of fury on the wall with my fist. what i thought was solid sement turned out to only be shitrock (drywall) and lucky i was able to stop myself before going through the 2nd layer. so now there is a big hole i have to patch (currently covered with a picture of the manager and his wife in the hall) and only made $19. walked out, told him im never workin bar again. what happens, can't get out of my next THREE bar shifts cuz its already scheduled. but im not workin this week on bar :)
oh yea, now a rumor is that i sold a drink to a minor (take me to court, they can't prove nothin) oh well.... only got 3 more days and im outa there. told them i need time off for clinicals since i don't have time for a 2 week notice....
talked to a friend who i hold close to me that knows me and michelle a lil and explained my situation to her. she admits to not knowing why we even got together in the first place..... oh well. i don't feel so bad now.... but i donno what to do. any recomendations from those who know me the most?
i can't even get a buzz anymore when i drink (sorry jen) tried beer, wine, vodka, gin, and wisky..... oh well, sign not to drink i guess (happy jen?)
oh well, finally able to submit my applications for a fire fighter job.... can't wait. well.... enough of this crap. i feel a lil better, hope you all have a lil insite to my life.... not much, but a lil. feel free to write all you want :) would love some feed back.
oh yea TOM: why haven't you REGESTERED the ZX2 yet??? my mom got ANOTHER ticket for it..... and shes PISSED at ME..... call me 904-294-8278
oh yea, and i just lost my 30 gig music collection :( :( so if anyone can help me rebuild, PLEASE let me know!!!! | | |
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| Hey everyone, wanted to let you know im STILL ALIVE!!! i know some of you are sayin "DAMN:"!!!! but TOO BAD!!
update: passed my EMT national test, and currently a national registered EMT. means i can start applying finally :) sweet, as soon as i get a new SS card :(
im currently enrolled in paramedic school. gota do 300 hours of ER clinical time and 300 hours of rescue ride along time... gonna suck, but oh well
I MISS YOU ALL!!!!
email me sometime fukers: ULTIMIS01@yahoo.com | | |
| hey everyone, i miss this sight, i need to start getting back on here on a regular basis. things have slown down a bit, so i think its possible. we completed our final burn day for training. FUK ut was hot! just over 500 degrees while i was in there. the first evelution i did was hose, and then we did search. we were the final group to go, but we got lucky and had a 3 man crew. today was the worse of the three we did so far because we are entering through the top floor and not the bottom. it was crazy, scary, but exciting. the forceable entry teame made enterence, then went down the the 2nd floor to beging the search for victoms. we fowllowed down to the 2nd floor, can't see crap, then hooked up the hose the the stand pipe. ok side note, we hook the hydrent up to the truck, then run a hose from the truck to the Fire Department Connection (FDC) outside that feeds wanter to the standpipes which is where we attach hose, then flake the hose out, open the valve to charge the hose, then advane the hose to make the attack. so since we had three people, i was in the middle. guy in back took the coupling, hooked up to the pipe, and stayed there on the 2nd floor. my partner and i went down. i was in the back and was flaking out my 50 ft section down the stairs in the dark till i ran out. i told kramer, the guy on nosel i was out and he went to flake his out. dumbass put the hose on his sholder upside down, so instead of having it flake off the top, it was trying to pull off from the bottom. he laid it down to flip the load over, and ended up dumping the whole batch. so its hot as hell, he is cussing, and im just standing there waiting for him to streatch out his hose so i can signal to ashenbrener to charge the line. kramer gets done, so i tap the pipe and he sends it flowin. i got back up, and then come back down and kick the hose agains the wall and make sure there aren't any kings. no problems there, so we got the signal to advance to the fire room. i threw hose into the room as kramer walked in to face the fire. we weren't going to put the fire out, just simulate. we were sitting there when an instructor told us to aply a wide fog to the ceiling. kramer did, saw the fire darken a little, then closed the nossel. steam filled the room, and it got humid and a lil hotter. a moment later the instructor got out, grabed the nosel, and said "leme show you how to make some steam" he took the thing and shook it every where for about 10 sec. he closed it because his hand was burning (i heard him cuss) then he laid down on the floor. i looked at the fire and saw a huge cloud comming down on us and i yelled GET DOWN. and damn, it got HOT FAST!! SOOOO much steam. then a few seconds later, i heard ash still in the stairwell - the hottest part of the building (acts like a chimney) cuss something, then heard some banging from the search team. damn, that was fun. we were told to break it down. so i signaled ash to close the pepe.... and nothin happened. so i yelled "what the fuck are you doing ash?" then i heard the squeek of the wheel closing. turns out one of the instructers were talkin to him thinking he was part of the search team. funny cuz the instructer was trying to figure out how the hell he got in the halway. well we drained the hose, carried it back up the stairs, through all the steam, and out the top floor. took everything off, drank some water, and damn it felt good to get out there!! cutting to the next evelution. there are some other things that happened through the day, but this post is going to be long enough as it is. so we go into the building to do the search, even hotter now cuz we were the last group to go. we ran down the stairs - hands and knees going backwars - and grouped up at the 2nd floor door. we did a right handed search. i was the leader and my job is to lead the group while keeping my right hand on the wall - hot - sweep out my left hand with my tool - hot and heavy (damn steel) - and direct the group where we were going. we moved fast, found all the victoms, and none of us got blisters on our knees like last time. thank goodness, cuz i had a big 2in one on my knee that im still peeiling dead skin from. we found three adult victoms in various places of the room. the room is different every time for everyone cuz the walls are movable. so there can be one or five rooms. there is also various furnature and crap layin around we gota dig through to find the victoms. one room is the worse and we always end up spending a lot of time in due to small spaces thats RIGHT on TOP of the fire. damn that rooms sucks. they hid two in that room. bastards. at the very end, i found the baby (lead instructor said no one was gona find that thing) and i was happy, yelled that i found the baby and we all cheered. it was behind a couch in a far corner. most poeple fallowed the couch around and never check the corner that was behind the couch. we only spent 9 min in there and no one ran out of air. a lot of people were going slow and using too much air causing them to fail. we were happy!! we cleaned up, paid $12 the other day to have a BBQ place cater. it was good, but they only brough two gallons of sweat tea. oh well. damn im tired. it feels good to be in contact with everyone again. i miss you all. live has been hard since my last post a month or two ago. i appologize. a LOT has happened. i quit my job and recently began another one as a server. i work just about every day, have just enough time after training to go home, shower, and run to work. sometimes i make good money, about $100 a day, and sometimes only around 30 or 40. usually breaks down to about 10 an hour and no taxes. excelpt for mon this week. i only had two tables all night and made $12. oh well.... i have all this week off so i can study. i have the class final on monday, physical and writen, and then the state test on tues and wed. then i am off to EMT training the following week... don't have much time off. but my goal is to submit my application to be a fire fighter in jan and be hired by march :D things should be great! well eeryone, im REALLY tired, but ill be back on here soon. oh yea, my new ph # is 904-294-8278 and i got tmobile now. | | |
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